this is how you ask a girl out
I feel happy, kilig, ahhhhhh, like everything is just at bliss. Everything just feels alright today. Or maybe it’s just the cheerful playlist I’m currently listening to? Lol whatever.
I never felt the need to stop the chaos that goes inside my head until these past few days and I’m just really happy that after having these bothersome thoughts, I am okay, completely calm and relaxed now. I just had problems with my own thoughts and with my group of friends. Some kind of misunderstandings and whatnots.
You know myself is just so weird. My mind is confusing and thinking in circles. Why do I have to confuse myself *cries I remember getting really frustrated at myself for not knowing what to do. -__- I want to scold myself! I can’t think of the right things to do, can’t think straight either.
I came to a point where I hated people. Being misunderstood. Being used. Being the one who should always beg for people to stay. Being forgotten. Being rejected. Being lied by people I care the most. Being left alone. Being the topic when I’m not around. I lost my trust, I don’t want to talk to anybody, I want to escape them. I think that people always bring me down, they disregard my feelings and boundaries, they make me feel so small and they cause me pain
But after reflecting and talking to certain people and special friends, I came to a realization that:
Bruuuh what the hell, I don’t give a damn anymore :-) I can’t do anything ‘bout it. Life is simple, people are complicated. I’ll try to reorganize my thoughts and my point of view. They said that it’s okay to let people in, that I’ll be surprised with what’ll happen if only I’ll look at it in a different perspective. I said, Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, we’ll see :-)